Wednesday, October 11, 2006

When the Holy Spirt convicted me....

During my first year of college I began to get pulled into a television show while babysitting at a family's home. Anytime I was at their home once the kids went to bed, I would watch this show. I got so into it that I began renting the episodes from the movie store. One thing lead to another and I had watched every single episode at least twice, owned the book about the show, talked about it, and constantly thought about the show. I loved the show! It was how I wanted to spend my weekends, watching it. That show was "Sex and the City". To me, this was the ideal show.

So, here I was, a Christian, drawn deep into a show, which practically consumed me. But I didn't see nothing wrong with it, even though the word "sex" was in the title! The show, living up to it's name, was basically about sex....in the city! However, the producers had this neat way of making it real life situations, so would appealing. In reality, this show was filled with all the pleasures of the world, especially sex. I was watching soft porn for a year and a half and never even realized it, until the Holy Spirit said, "That's not right". I allowed myself to be deceived into thinking that it was okay because of fashion icons, real life situations and because it was on TV.

Now days, when I look back a see how sinful that was for me to allow a show like "Sex and the City" to take over my thoughts, and possibily even my actions, it makes me sick. When I see the commericals on TV for the TBS episodes, I change the channel. In my post, "Grey's Anatomy: What's all the hype?" I talk about the need for Christian women to be aware of what they are watching. I wrote that because I KNOW how big that need is. We need to be do-ers and hearers of the word, not the world.

Me watching porn? Yep, soft porn, but none-the-less, porn. Don't believe it? Ask me, remember, I've seen every episode.

2 comments:

Anonymous said...

Melissa,
Thank you for your honestly and boldness in your blog! It is refreshing to hear of someone who loves the Lord AND hates the world! Your Grey's Anatomy post brought out a sad reality -- many of God's children don't do all the world does, but they let it ALL in their homes via the TV. Our homes are ending up like Lot's home -- Lot only "looked" at Sodom to begin with. I think that was the 1st TV! He watched them, then he joined them and lived among them. Yes, he was still righteous - 2 Peter 2:7-8, and God delivered him. But what grief to God and destruction to his family because of his choice to "look" at the world! Thanks again for your post. I look forward to reading many more! Sincerely, Jolene

Anonymous said...

Hi Melissa,
THANK YOU for sharing what the Lord is doing in your life. Isn't it AMAZING how quickly and quietly satan can slither into our lives and we don't catch it? PRAISE GOD FOR HIS CONVICTION!!! I'm so thankful that you listen to His still, small voice and obey Him.

His,
Mrs. U